其實, 早在四個月前, 已經知道會有事情發生, 但那時不知道是甚麼事情. 我向神禱告: 就讓要發生的事發生在我身上吧!
這幾天, 知道了. 悲傷和不捨總是會有的, 但卻沒有想像中那麼難受. 禱告不是要使神做我們心裏想的事, 而是要讓我們輕鬆走在神安排的路上.
感受到周圍的人的關心, 每句說話, 每個眼神, 每個動作, 每個服事, 每份心.
這幾天聽到最有共鳴, 讓我自然地微笑的一句話, 相信沒有人會猜到:
能有這麼好的父親, 陪伴自己那麼多年, 我實在幸福無比.
再見爸爸. 下次見面時, 我要觀賞你的球賽, 看你在綠草上奔馳.
各位, 不用再問我是否不開心, 不用再想甚麼說話安慰我. 要關心我, 可以多花些時間陪伴我, 和我傾談, email/IM/SMS/留言在我blog, 和我一起吃喝玩樂行山游水打波睇波聽jazz睇戲唱歌跳舞種花養草煮飯整餅讀聖經. 我的Love language是Quality time. 不論生活中的大小事情, 好或不好, 開心不開心的, 都告訴我. 把你的心事告訴我, 你的內心說話就是我的食糧, 你的敞開與坦誠就是我的良藥.
I knew that something would happen since 4 months before. I didn’t sure what would happen. However, I prayed for whatever will happen on me, just happen on me.
Now I know that it is. Although it’s really sad and I’m so reluctant, I am not so uncomfortable as I thought. Prayer is not for what we want God to do, but for how we walk on the road God planned.
I feel concerned from what people said, from their eyes, from their actions, from their services, from their hearts.
I saw so many relatives and friends, just like in a party.
But no one knows that I am in most sympathy with one sentence:
I learned so many things, especially from my father.
It is so fortunate that I got such a good father and we lived together for such a long time.
See you, father. I would like to watch your football match next time when we meet.
Dear all, no more asking me if I’m unhappy or not, no more trouble to think words to comfort me. You can show your concern by spending a little time with me. Talk with me, email/IM/SMS/comment on my blog, eat and drink, hiking or swimming, playing sports or watching sports, listening to jazz or watching movie, singing or dancing, planting, cooking, baking, or bible studying with me. My love language is quality time. I love listening to people talk about their life, their secrets. I feel good when you open your mind and confess.
I give myself this poem:
“I would be true,
for there are those who trust me;
I would be pure,
for there are those who care;
I would be strong,
for there is much to suffer;
I would be brave,
for there is much to bear.
I would be friend to all,
the friendless, the foe;
I would be giving,
and forget the gift;
I would be humble,
for I know my weakness;
I would look up to God,
and laugh, and love, and lift."